I got to see him today....which was so marvelous, I could barely take my eyes off him to even focus (his fault, Mr. Palmer). I just figured out how hard this whole abstinence* thing is going to be. After practice (which was quite intense, I hope he liked my fierceness), he drove me back to the school where we got to hang out and talk. We were so...perfect. It was like the most beautiful blend of human relationships you could ever get. But even with that, we just get so caught up in ourselves, that we can lose sight of what we can and cannot do. I like it when that happens, but I can't really let that happen now, can I? Do I just have to play my parents' game and then after they approve it's back to business as usual? Or is it just to be righteous? I would like to see how far we can go, but I just have the feeling, that he'll get me to give in somehow. Or I'll want him so badly, I'll just have to have him....especially with Spartanburg* coming up. He knows what kind of influence he has over me, which could be very bad..or very very good.
About prom, I don't know if I can go with CJ because my mother knows about what he did to get Chris and I to hang out. Travis told my mother about him picking me up and taking me to the movies where we met Chris...and the afterward. She probably won't let me go with him so yet again I am dateless. I could ask a couple sophomores or something because my junior hopes are too high. At least high enough for me to want to go down a grade.
OOH! Before I forget, I need to ask him what Emily's (Hall) favorite color is. I want to thank her for all she's done to help him out, and I only know about one way to do that....so let me know.
I've been eating fortune cookies these past few days because I have up snack cakes and soda for Lent. I opened one today and I thought it was totally appropriate, and it would really rock if this were reality. It said "you will receive some high prize or reward soon." I entered this contest yesterday, and I would really like to win it, but everything's subjective when it comes to things like this, but....I really want to win. I doubt I will though. :(
I finished out my evening with my one of my favorite movies, and my mom asked me why I was in such a good mood. The excuse I gave her: exercise improves your mood. The real excuse: I talked to my best friend and true love today.
I love you,
MC
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well, i hope you win that contest for whatever it is! and emily's favorite color is bright blue
ReplyDeleteand dont worry, i didnt tell her why i asked that question, so its going to be a complete surprise for her