Day 17

I was doing the last part of my anatomy project yesterday and I was listening to some piano music playlist I had and this song came on that absolutely made me want to cry, and it made all of this pain and effort worth it.

It's fondly called "Moonlight Sonata". And my boyfriend has played it for me so beautifully before. And the passion behind the composer that motivated him to write such an incredible and moving piece...makes it so much easier to carry on. And that's exactly what I plan on doing. If God wants the two of us together, He'll tell my parents how important Chris is to me. And I believe that if they won't accept that now, I'll just have to wait for him. And if for some reason, God doesn't want us together, then we'll stop loving each other. End of story. If Christopher stops loving me then we know it can't be right. If I stop loving him then we know it can't be right. Quite frankly, I don't see that happening right now, but it could once time continues to tick away and my parents don't allow me to talk to him. But I always find a way if he wants to talk to me as well.

Most exciting and wonderful news of the day: I'm not pregnant.
I got my period today, and I've never been happier to receive it. I wanted to badly to rub it in my mother's face, but I knew that would be wrong, and she has the right not to trust Chris and I to be careful. I understand that I guess.

My wrist still hurts like hell. It can't be carpal tunnel because I always type this much. Maybe it's because I always hold the cart when we put up the mat...it can do some weird things to my wrists, but it's only the right one that's hurting.

So, we were out of school today, even though someone hacked into the Sullivan County system and sent out an early text declaring that we were out, and then they scratched that, and said we were on a regular schedule, then at 5:25, they re-closed the schools. I think it was mostly because they wanted to find the mole in the system. Sullivan County is plotting to steal my spring break as well, even though for the majority of it I will be in Orlando. :)

Drumline got a lot done today, the passion and funness and excitment of the show is starting to pick up and I'm excited about what we can do.

After tomorrow's practice, Ashley's supposed to come over to sleep over to have a hemp party and Dylan and Chase want to come over for tacos. I don't know if Mom will approve/have enough because Gracie's supposed to come home for spring break.

I love you, and I might not be able to talk to you via Ashley tomorrow because of my mother's rules. Apparently not even talk ABOUT you, but whatever, I might just do it anyways.
MC